Love has the power to disguise or blind you from the negative part of a person, or just give you the balls to knowingly take the risk despite knowing this person's unfavorable characteristics. The risk you take when giving someone your heart is a big one. How could a feeling that once had me constantly smiling now turn on me and bring me down to a new low? It scares me... You're heartbroken, crying yourself to sleep, unable to eat, barely able to function normally, and despite having your family and friends trying to do everything they can to bring you back up and despite knowing that these feelings are being felt by a billion other people around the world with broken hearts you still feel lonely...
It scares me how someone can bring you down to this level even when you did everything right, even when you're undeserving of it. They say its all a learning experience but what is there to learn if you did everything you were supposed to on your part?
Is the lesson that's meant to be learned here that no matter how happy a man can make you feel to always have your guard up because he could at any moment reveal himself to be a douche lord that will just break your heart like the other dicksickles?
Moving on has never been harder but its a must, I can't regret anything though... I appreciate all the good times we shared but at the same time I will never be the same girl I was before and will never love the same but... hopefully... I'm not even sure anymore... I just never want to allow someone to have the power to hurt me like this.
"If you don't learn from your past mistakes, then your past itself was a mistake."
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